So... What do we do now?

This is the first time ever in my life as a student I did not know what to do for the holiday… Usually, I will plan something; vigorously plan something for the holiday during the studying week…

This time around, I did not think of anything… I am not sure whether I will be going to some other part of Australia this year… Positively I am not going home… So, I said to myself, just do whatever I cannot do while I was busy with my university… Catch up with my training and practises, reading books, games to play and friends to see…

This is also the first holiday, I do not really want to see any human… Just want to spend my time looking up to the sky and enjoying good music… Nobody to talk to and nobody talk to me… Just want to feel somewhat humanless… Hmmmm… Or in another word, just want to be with myself just for a while…

HELLLLL!

Finally,

I have reached the end of hell… Now I am just wondering whether I will be out of it or just step into another hell… Hell, I wish I know…

The Final Paper?

I am looking forward to end my life as a student… Then this stupid course came along… The assignments are tough and now the final too… Why most of the mechanical courses do not supply the equations to the final? Most of them are not even open book… CRAZY! MADNESS!

I mean, the engineers around us, do they have to memorize all of the engineering equations? There are many kinds of engineers… Even for an engineer from the same field, say mechanical, will have many things to study… thermodynamics, dynamics, structure, fluid mechanics, acoustics, materials, fracture, bla, bla,bla… and the university expected us to memorize the whole equations from all these subjects? Come on, university, at least open book exams or worst come to worst, allow us to bring some notes with us legally…

I do not think that an engineer has to come up with a solution on the spot…

Boss: Hey, engineer!
Engineer: Yes boss?
Boss: I saw a crack on this wall… How big the cracks will grows if I keep leaning on this wall?
Engineer; Let me just do the calculation for you sir…
Boss: Yes yes, you do that, in about 5 minutes, right here… Fail to do so, well, to put it in a nice way, you will be fired…
Engineer:…

Do those sorts of thing happen in the real life?

All I want is to pass that stupid course...

It is cold in winter...

I like it here when it is warmer… That is one of the reasons why I choose to come here… I cannot stand cold and if that one place is snowing, that would not be a place that I want to go! Heck, I cannot even stand air conditioned room…

Anyway, the season I despise the most is here to stay for maybe 6 months or less. This is the time where heater is at the top of my favourite item list. Maybe the best thing about the coldness is, I do not have to shower more than a typical Asian usually does per day. The food also last longer even if I did not put them in the fridge… Less flies… Strawberries dipped in chocolate… Sigh… All the things I love except for the cold…

I have a natural cold-o-meter within my body… When the temperature drop to the most undesired temperature, my body will automatically produce more liquid in form of mucus… You know, the green gooey thing you usually sees when you have flu or cold… The production is so intense that it filled up my nose… If I do not blow them out, those liquid can make my breathing hard and most of the time block the nasal passage… Usually happen at night… When I am busy sleeping…

That is why I hate cold… Other than the fact my hands are super cold and my lips always bleeding… Probably my mother should be happy that my mouth cannot be opened extra wide during winter too… It is just painful… Good thing I cannot eat KFC’s Zinger and McD’s BigMc… If not, it would just be painful for both of my mouth and my heart…

Good job make good money...

Which job will earn you more money in this world? Since school time, my teachers always encourage us to be DOCTORS, ENGINEERS and LAWYERS… The three main jobs that the teachers and the rest of my communities back home think will earn good money and a good living too…

I did not agree with my teachers after observing the world at that time… I did not say it out loud in the class but I did not agree with my teachers and thought that they lied… After a while, I now know that they did not lie, it is just how people perceive that perspective and up hold it…

I was also brought up in a surrounding where people scorn at the non science students… And how people look up to the science students… I also did not like that way of thinking and practically believe that people are so stupid… Because the surrounding, gives us the answers…

All I can say is this…. Whatever job you choose and you believe in it will lead you to success… Any job. Any job in this world… The non science and the science people coexist to keep the balance in this world…

Most of the people who tell you how to go around in this world and pay you are non science people. These are the people that make laws and orders. Most of the science people are just like cattle, working under people that they believe to be lower than them… And most of them still think they are cleverer than those non science people but slave away under them… Such is the world.

As I grow up, I get to know the three main things in your life. TIME, MONEY and LOVE… There are jobs with good money, but takes away your time and love. There are jobs that gives you time, but takes away your money and love. There are jobs that give you love but takes away your money and time…

TIME is how much you spend your time working and how much time you have with your family and your love ones…

MONEY is how much you will earn to maintain your living style or to change your current life style…

LOVE is how much your heart and your spirit can carry you and get you to do your job until your death…

Very rare I had seen people who can get the three main things in their grasp. Many I had seen never actually got hold of one element but believe they actually have it but instead lose a lot in the other elements…

So, my conclusion, be nice to everybody because one of them might be your future boss. Any job you choose, if you know how and taking into account all the moral and religious values can gives you lots of money…

I mayor may not touch this topic again but there are more stuff I like to share with people so I might…

The Best Course in the WORLD!

I am nearing to the end of my life as a student… I have to say, honestly, I am still not sure whether I am doing the best course in the world...

I had come across people arguing, who is doing the best course, who is doing the hardest course, who is the best making money course, blab la and on and on… If you ask me, honestly speaking, it is high probably the same with most of the people on this world… I DO NOT know which is the best course, which is the hardest course, which course will earn you more money, and whatever questions you have on courses…

Reason why? It is because nearly all my life, all I had been doing is engineering and no other courses… So, to me it is not fair for me to put my words on other courses if I had not taken it… Unless, that guy had taken lots of other courses in his life, I will personally think that person is just stupid and foolish if he commented on how hard or how easy other courses is… because he DO NOT know and may probably will never know…

All I know is, it is fun to listen to other people talk on their courses… You get to glimpse into a totally different world… A world I may not be able to see myself unless I am given all the time in this world… Then perhaps, I may be able to feel what others had felt… Oh, I need lots of money too…

Now, Gula is here with me...

I slept early so that I would wake up early... which I did because of my hunger, 4 hours before my alarm went off...

With weird dream of my friends from the old school day and diploma time, I woke up thinking of this one girl, who use to be a past that I hardly remember but get to know well currently…

She reminds me of my old time favourite food… A local Sarawakian dish that originate from Chinese dishes and accepted into the other Sarawakian communities… A dish that some people said tastes nicer with pork… A dish that I usually eat if I am not into the mood of eating my other favourite local dish… A dish that when I usually ordered, amused my cousin, and said, “Aren’t you going to get sick eating that?”

I am hungry when I was writing this up… Hungry and missed my local food… A food that easily obtained at most of the time of the day back at home… Or my mother could cook it up… And for sure it is cheaper even if it is available here… And halal for me too, because for sure, if it is available here, then it will be garnish with pork…

Morning hunger, waking remembering that one Sarawakian girl and missing the local food remind me of mee Kolok or Kolok mee… In whichever way you said it, it still mean the same thing and one thing only… I find it pretty much a waste of time to argue about it and I rather eat it than argue about it… Whatever name it has, it has only one place to go and it will end up in my belly…

Sigh…

Breakfast then… Canned cream of mushroom with extra mushroom in the butter eaten with toast then… plus cereal and hot milo… Nice breakfast anyway but if I have the choice between Kolok and whatever I am going to eat soon, Kolok will be it…

Another deep sigh…

AaaaacediaaaaA...

Thus,

Once again he returns,
A warning to mourn,
Whispering into mind he burns,
What you usually will scorn…

How heavy my eyelids have became,
Those strong arms weigh a tonne,
All my wonder have been put to shame,
Just because of him alone…

As time draw nearer,
Will the sword be raise well?
Draw the power for a strong barrier?
Failure will lead to another jump into hell…

Begone thee o, Acedia...

Drats those forms...

One of the huge different in my country and here is this… when you have to write down your name…

Somehow, back in my country, there is only one blank space for name... and yet we still know which is his name and which is his father name… providing he did not have more than two words for a name… if not, it may take a few guesses…

Here, you have one blank space for surname… and another for middle name if you have one… and yet another for given name… you have wasted two extra spaces just for that…

The best part is when I give my name to any of those people who have to do that… I do not know why, but they always call out my father’s second name. Even after I explained to them… Sheeesh… I am not that stupid bloody asian who does not know which is middle name and which is surname… It is you who did not know my name… Stupid angmo who do not know things other than themselves…

Happen a few times… Some even rolled their eyes when I correct them… I am pretty sure I know my name better… Like I said, they have difficulties in the name part and I do hope they can learn something from the Asian in writing names…

welcome to the study week...

And so... The time where I feel relief and burden at the same time has finally arrive...
Relief because all the assignment had been hand in...
Burden because of all the studying I have to do...

This is also the time where you wish it is over and not over at the same time...
Get it over quick so you can say good bye to studying and exams...
Let it pass slowly or do not get to the end yet so that you can study, study really, really hard and smart (whichever you want) and make sure you know all the stuff you need to know by the time for your exam...

There are time where I wished there is no exams and assignments but still be able to graduate... Hmmmm...